Journal Date, February 14th, 2022 – Happy Valentine’s Day, beautiful soul!
Today, I read an amazing quote from the MoonOmens authors as I was learning about the upcoming full moon.
“Don’t resist change. Don’t fight what’s being taken away from you. If something is ending or leaving, it has to, the time has come for it to be transformed.”
Moon Omens
This hits deep for me.
You might know by now that I struggle to, in a sense, “go with the flow.”
It’s ironic considering, I’ve spent the last 7 years of my life abiding by my mom’s “Rule of 5” which meant you had to be ready to go (i.e. leave for a hike, take off on a road trip, etc) in 5 minutes, 5 hours, 5 days, or 5 weeks.
You never know!
My siblings became the epitome of adaptable. Despite my ability to adapt, I’m always tripped up by my ability to trust.
I’ve gotten much better at this, especially in the last year. But it’s easy to say you’re growing into your weaknesses when there are no trials or tribulations.
Two weeks ago, that “trial” showed up, ushering in a dramatic change in my family’s life trajectory, which in turn affects my life trajectory.
In the past, I would’ve felt slighted—betrayed even, for a shift like this to happen after I’ve finally created closure.
But not this time.
This time I knew with complete trust that this was exactly what had to happen.
I didn’t used to believe in destiny.
I’ll never know for sure, but it seems to me that our life is like a river with many tributaries.
We think 1 decision could change the trajectory of our lives forever, but like a fork in the river, eventually those streams will rejoin, and the endpoint remains the same.
Your destiny is waiting for you…but you can’t stop moving.
You can’t let fear of the unknown hold you back, you can’t worry about making the wrong decision because you can’t make the wrong decision in destiny after all.
In 7 years of changing often, I’ve learned that resisting change does you no good. It took me 3 years to get over the loss of my friends who shunned me for living in an RV as a teenager. It took me 2 years to get over the loss of my “old life” that was stolen by COVID.
Over the last 2 weeks of reflecting, one of the most notable thoughts that’s crossed my mind is how much I regret clinging onto the past.
In 7 years of travel, I’ve been blessed with more fulfillment than many have likely ever experienced in their lifetimes, but at the same time…
I can’t believe how much of my amazing upbringing was wasted in a subconscious state of feeling betrayed.
Time is lost in resistance.
So don’t resist change. Don’t resist the unknown. Don’t deny your emotions or suppress your thoughts. Don’t cling onto the past too tightly and have faith in a wonderful future.
Surrender. Let go. Trust.
I truly believe this next transition will be one of the best things to ever happen to me and my family.
Turns out, we’re destined for this.
I know I haven’t really told you what happened, but I’ll just leave with one of my favorite quotes of all time, and maybe you can guess.
“When they passed through cities, the nomads would think: the poor people who live here, for them everything is always the same. The people in the cities probably looked at the nomads and thought: Poor things, they have nowhere to live. The nomads had no past, only the present, and that is why they were always happy…”
Paulo Coelho
Read part 2 and find out what happened next by clicking here.