August 10th, 2022 – I’ve asked myself the question lately: What are we shooting for?
What am I shooting for? What are you shooting for?
I’m all over the place.
I’m working on 5-6 separate businesses, splitting my attention a tad too far.
I’m flighty and anxious about where I want to be as in where I literally want to travel to and be based out of.
I have 1,000 data points about neuroscience and psychology memorized but don’t have a cohesive 1 line statement for what the benefit of this information is.
I want to help others heal their programmings and emotional wounds, and thus heal their bodies, but lately I’m not doing a very good job of it myself.
I’m torn between doing less more and doing more and how I speak to myself: “I should be doing more” or “I’m doing enough.”
I’ve sent my energy into so many different places “out there,” there is no energy left in the container of my Self.
What am I shooting for?
Am I just shooting for enough money to support my lifestyle— work from anywhere ad choose my schedule? Or is it for meaningful work? Is it sharing my gifts with the world? Is it see-a-need fill-a-need?
Or am I shooting for joy and happiness? Is it fun and friendships? Or discipline and a mission? Is it the summit or the pursuit? Is it the unknown or the routine?
Is it even possible to have a clear answer?
I was telling my sister last week, that “I never realized how much I’m constantly questioning what’s ‘right’ and ‘wrong’.”
It may sound virtuous at first, but the problem is that my decisions have never been based on what I want or don’t want. I always ask if it is “good” or “bad” and in my idealism, I have trouble discerning even that. What makes something good or bad?
Without “wants,” we are lost.
Without desire, there’s no target.
I remember seeing Mark Manson once say in one of his books that we think logic is in the driver’s seat of our life but that’s not true. Logic is just the navigator in the passenger seat. Emotion is the driver.
You can’t lead a fulfilling life— one where you feel grounded in the knowingness that this IS what is right and true to you, unless you have a relationship with your emotions.
Today, I let myself feel. It felt “wrong.” Felt wrong because there shouldn’t have been anything to feel upset or sad or angry about. I should be “doing good.”
Sometimes, there is not logic to put on your emotions.
Emotion is energy stored in the body and it may have arrived there a thousand different ways in the just the past week.
Part of the solution to healing is accepting that the past happened, it doesn’t’ have to be labeled if you can simply release it. Release it by feeling it.
I shed a few tears today then I said “I shouldn’t have.”
But that is part of being human. As much as I preach balancing all 7 chakras I will always forget the lesson of the Sacral Chakra: I feel.
And I feel like I can’t do it all.
As much as emotion is scary and painful, it is our guidance.
We can’t have purpose without emotion because purpose is any act of overcoming hurdles in the pursuit of your desires…and we can’t have desire without knowing our emotions.
I don’t know about you, but feeling is very hard for me. I can’t let go of the reins and let that energy flow unrestricted through my system.
But I’m trying.
I ask, in confusion, what am I shooting for? But I do know. I know I am shooting for an inner peace and a feeling of love.
Where you feel like you truly have lifted a weight off of your shoulders.
It’s where you feel that what you are doing is right. It’s like a really good hug from the universe.
I’m shooting for feeling like I am good enough and I know that is my programming arising and therefore, I’m shooting for healing my programming.
This is what I’m shooting for. And I think that’s what you’re shooting for too.
The thing is, you’re not shooting for healing my programming. You’re shooting for healing YOUR programming which means sitting in your emotions and getting to root of your deepest, core beliefs.
This is the target of Be The Hero Academy and it’s difficult to explain what the benefit of this membership in our “marketing” because it is tailored to each and every person’s unique programming and individual life journey. It’s giving you the support you need to release the weight for your shoulders and feel radiant health.
I may know in my mind what I’m shooting for but the truth is, we still can’t do it all.
You don’t have to & you shouldn’t have to because you’re already enough.
So what experience is it that you really want?
The only way to answer the question of priorities is to…
- Tune into the third eye,
- Visualize those scenarios,
- And let yourself FEEL EMOTIONS.
Because in the end, it’s not about what we want our life to be like and look like, those are secondary to the hardest question of all:
What do we want our lives to feel like?
I know for me, I don’t want to feel this much pressure in my life (though I’m sure I’ll have to work on it for the rest of my life)
I want to feel love and light and joy and so I ask myself what memories from my past have made me feel love, light, and joy.
And what part of that memory made me feel that way? Was it the people? The place? The activity? The nourishment?
It’s not easy to get to the root of what we want, but we can’t make shifts until we have a target.
How do you want to feel? What are you shooting for?